Recent thoughts

I have been pretty dull lately, so I thought I would write something cheery. I’ve finished all my classes and exams for the year, Yippee, I feel great about that. Last week (or maybe the last two weeks) was one of the worst weeks, but it is over now. And I also had my last interview today for jobs next year. I feel good. And lately I have been thinking about all my friends at the moment, and I am so glad to know them. They all have particular perks that make them special and they are just great people. I think next year will be hard as I will miss all of them. They are so fun. Well I do feel like naming them all, but then I don’t want to leave anyone out so I will not. But I just want to say thankyou for being my friend, you really have all made a difference in my life. I love ya all.

I watched a movie not long ago called ‘Rumour has it...’ and now I really feel sorry for guys. I think women can be so complicated. I guess I can be to… And I thought of another reason today, but I can’t remember what it was… I just think we women are so emotionally driven, which can be good, but also bad.

Anyway, another thing I wanted to share was that I had a patient recently that was not allowed to have an operation due to their age. I don’t know all the details because I wasn’t actually the one looking after them, but from what I observed, I think he really wanted the operation. And I don’t really know where I stand on this issue. There is the view that old people are nearing the end of their life and they should just be left to die naturally, that the resources and money could be used more efficiently on a younger person who is more likely to benefit from the surgery, and the older a person is the higher the risk of complications from the operation. But then also what about the patient’s life? What about what they want? What about their quality of life? There are so many issues out there that I had not even considered or thought of, it can be very difficult being a nurse and trying to be a patient advocate.

On a search...

I am on a search… it has been fruitless and perhaps is a waste of time, and it will probably end in tears again. But I still struggle on and hold on. I don’t understand why though. It is a mystery, I just can’t let go so easily. Perhaps my mother was right in saying that I may take a while to make a decision, but one I have made it, it is final. The only problem with that is that I may hold onto it, even though it has died… but even a glimmer of hope- even if only seen for a second, I will keep on holding on that much longer. It is sad… a hopeless case it seems. Is it worth it?

A bit about me:

1. School: Currently Avondale College
2. Eyes: Blue...quite blue
3. Height: somewhere around 160cm I think
4. Siblings: Yes, I have 2 siblings
5. Ever missed school because it was raining? Yes, the roads got flooded so we couldn't get there by bus- but that didn’t happen very many times.
6. Kept a secret from everyone? Yes, although technically that isn’t possible, because God always knows- but from people, definitely.
7. Favorite Color: Blue -of course.
8. Summer/Winter? Definitely summer, but more to the end of summer and the beginning. The middle of summer can get too hot.
9. Diamonds/pearls? Diamonds, they sparkle in the light, although they are sharper than pearls
10. Do you believe in God? Absolutely
11. Believe in Love? Yes, although it is hard to understand, and at times to identify.
12. Believe in Wishes/Dreams? Yes, if you believe in them and try to achieve them, then they can come true for you.
13. Believe in Heaven? Yes, otherwise I have no hope for anything better than this sinful world.
14. Half empty or half full? Half empty- there’s always room for more.
15. Where would you like to live? Somewhere in the country- I'm definately not living in the city- I hate it.
16. Who would you want to spend the rest of your life with? God- but then, I guess I can't change than even if I didn't want to.
17. All time favorite TV show: McLeouds Daughters- anyone who doesn’t like it is crazy- that Wednesday night 7:30, for those who don’t know.
18. Favourite hobby? Making cards and hand sewing.
19. Favourite word(s)? Yeah, and hmmm (and so does Heather so we found out last night he, he, he).

Life is a blur

Life is going by like a blur…like a fuzzy black and white screen with occasional spots of color, its like watching a movie late at night when you are tired but can not sleep, however the movie is on fast forward and if you blink you miss things and loose the story line altogether. Anyway, I just made that up, so sorry if it does not make sense.

This is a random, sad story…
A friend asked a gentleman how it is that he never married? The gentleman replied, "Well, I guess I just never met the right woman ... I guess I've been looking for the perfect girl."
"Oh, come on now," said the friend, "Surely you have met at least one girl that you wanted to marry."
"Yes, there was a girl... once. I guess she was the one perfect girl; the only perfect girl I really ever met. She was just the right everything... I really mean that she was the perfect girl for me."
"Well, why didn't you marry her," asked the friend.
"She was looking for the perfect man."
Yes, this is a sad story; I don’t know why I am putting it on here. I guess I hope that nobody makes that mistake in their life. Nobody is perfect but God, we all make mistakes.

Love this picture

I really like this picture. Maybe it is just these colors that I like. Anyway, at first I thought it was a slightly warped (stretched) butterfly in the centre, but when I looked at it closer, I think it looks more like two angels just touching, and where they touch is where the color and light is coming from. Anyway, its interesting and I just wanted to share.

Free as a bird... almost

Well another week went by finally. I cant wait until the next 4 weeks are over, by then I will be as free as a bird... almost.
Well I would have finished the 3 upcoming assignments, all my classes for the year, all my exams, all my clinical, and the majority of my assignments (but 2, which I will have plenty of time to finish). It sounds good, but also scary that this is all I have left to do before becoming an RN.... very scary. Hopefully I have learnt something about nursing over the last 3 years.